Summer coord with pieces bought from taobao while i was in Wuhan~! I wanted to make a video haul of all the stuff i got while I was visiting but i didnt know how and where to start. The loft (where i want to film) is super warm this season during the day and sun sets around 10pm ish atm so i try avoiding hanging out there. the hype of yapping about them has also died ahaha so i dont think i'll ever talk about it. Also i decided to pause jFashion this summer and focus on other things. For one, i'm really not compatible with the heat. I also prefer spending on fall/winter clothing they make me happier, most importantly i gained a lot of weight and couldn't fit into my clothes.
At first i was very upset about it and has let it get me down a lot but now i feel more calm and collected and just know i will able to lose again slowly. Even thohugh i've only gained more weight since. hahaha. That's just life and its ebb and flow, i will enjoy a period of losing weight then cycle back to gaining weight. it is tiresome to focus and im in my mid30s now so there's a part of me that's just couldn't get to overthink and hyperfocus anymore about it. let it be. i enjoy other hobbies again other than just my body. Even though dressing up and wearing my cute clothes has made me so happy and felt most in-tune with myself, it's just not practical to buy clothes again that fit me especially with the prices, accessibility and notorious sizing of jfashion brands. doesnt mean i cant dressup anymore, i still can, just not with the clothes i have painstakingly collected throughout the months. So recently im just in sweats and and oversize shirts again. I still take care of my hair, i do at-home eyelash lift, DIY nail pressons, so there is still that element of being intune with myself through self expression.
